I’m currently forcing myself to watch TADC (I want to be able to be an obnoxious shithead with an obnoxious opinion on it) and I keep having to watch in short intervals and pause because of a mix of overacted characters, hyperactive cinematography and general cringe.
Am I just too jaded and cynical, despite being a manchild? Am I destitute of ‘whimsy and joy’? Or is this some kind of autism thing where my brain perceives obnoxious things that make me feel vicariously embarrassed as somehow the same thing as socialization, but more so? Is the kind of autism the creators had one that leads them to want to fill in their empty social life with media that acts as a surrogate for in a way that would put Hideaki Anno on suicide watch? Am I just too old for this? Or does this series suck, regardless of your age? I want to like it, but holy shit it is so annoying
I don’t really feel drain in general anymore due to various psychological pathologies, but I’ve had friends who feel the same way, that TADC is overstimulating. For me, it’s the right amount of obnoxious and overstimulating that strangely enough, makes me feel engaged. With just about everything else, it’s either too adult and emotional that I can’t process it properly, or I can’t absorbed very well at all.
obnoxious things that make me feel vicariously embarrassed
Sometimes I get overwhelmed when I watch clips that are socially tense or cringe, like pranks or true crime interviews? But I think I have experienced it with things that are more TADC, just not as often.
I have to pause and let the feeling dissipate before I continue. But then I have to ask: why am I making myself continue? I still enjoy something about it, but is it worth it? Is this the best way I could desensitize myself to whatever I’m feeling?