You can’t become normal.
Normality is a pre-determined state of being. You’re born with it or you’ll never have it. No abnormality has ever “self-improved” themselves back into a frame people would consider reasonable. They’re always a deviation from strange.
Abnormal wears the newest look, improves their body, sharpens their mind, it all reads as cope. Women are best at picking up on it, i.e. “This guy is unconfident, and fronting confidence.” The actions could be exactly the same, and they’ll still come off as different because they’ve been applied onto a different base. Lots of people get caught up on it, because they have an understanding that they’re abnormal. They think that if they do the normal thing, that they’ll become normal. This just isn’t the case.
Most people who act normally do so because they themselves are normal. It’s an honest expression of the soul, not some sort of conformity. This causes extreme bitterness and confusion in those left outside of the norm. They feel as if everyone else is clued into some inside-joke they’re not a part of. Abnormal people are left out, but it’s not due to lack of effort on their part, or increased effort in their peers.
You could watch a thousand hours of videos on how to be normal, and you never will be. You’ll just act like a guy who’s watched a thousand hours of “how to be normal” videos. You can say the right things in the right tone while trying to flirt and come off as creepy. Fired from one job, you decide to put your best foot forward, dedicate effort to the new one, and your boss will view you as a try-hard and your coworkers will find you grating.
Abnormal people often have an acute awareness of their otherness, and it troubles them. The two paths often taken are treating normals as cattle, goyim, unensouled beings who simply don’t “get it,” or trying to make an in-group out of the out-group, banding together on nothing but the fact that they’re the other.
It’s toddler reasoning. A firm understanding that they’ve been handed a losing hand makes them want to flip the board and stop playing. They accuse the in-group of cheating, or loudly declare that they actually have a new, better game to play. It becomes an insurmountable task to admit that they are fundamentally different from others, so they point fingers.
“He’s just like me! He just did X, Y, and Z, now everyone thinks he’s normal!”
“Weird? You’re the weird one! The way I do everything is the norm, and most people on earth are just a deviation from what’s actually normal. I’m the only man actually made in God’s image!”
I tried to be normal for years, sort of. I didn’t fit in well growing up, and obviously tried to mold myself into something more acceptable. It just didn’t work. Nothing I did on purpose to change myself ever worked.
I have had normal outcomes, on occasion. I’ve had sex, I get along with my family, my coworkers like me, and it’s not too difficult to make friends. All of it fell into place when I just stopped trying to hit either end. I stopped trying to be normal, and stopped trying to be edgy and intentionally strange. I might not personally care for “normie” hobbies or media, but I don’t harp and hate on them constantly. The people who freak out at the notion that some genuinely just want a family, stable job, and house in the suburbs are often just as mundane. I don’t try and squeeze myself into either group, which I think a lot of people end up doing. Not every guy who isn’t into fantasy football has to join some anti-natalist DnD group full of fat millennials.
I honestly think it’s the reason a lot of guys end up trooning out, they keep chasing abnormality to find a group they might fit into, which runs them right off the edge and fries their brain. Anime and Linux are hip now, time to start pinning estrogen.
People can and do change. What’s normal can and does change. People never intentionally change to normal. If you’re abnormal, you might be normal at some point. If you try to be normal, you never will. If you try to be abnormal, you’ll just be another P.T. Barnum act. Eventually, even the other freaks will grow weary of your performance.
