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I want to suggest something about Holocaust PTSD, too.

Perhaps one of the worst aspects of Holocaust PTSD is the revision of Jewish people’s mental model post-Holocaust.

Pre-Holocaust, Jewish people were probably excited as all-get-out that the Western world was dropping barriers to their ascendancy is various fields of life. They were excited that they were going to go out, conquer the dumb goyim finally, take over the West in the same way that White people took over black people, become the world’s nobility, and ultimately become the “heroes” who lead the world to peace and unity that the Bible promised them. Purportedly, the gentiles will be tamed enough to be happy being an underclass, fully-accepting with graceful meekness that the Jews are a superior race and they are better-suited to hold all high positions in society. I’d say that Jared Taylor and Ryan Faulk would probably promote this idea. Although, both of those imbeciles probably don’t realize just how underrepresented their people are, and will continue to be, in the elite of the USA. They clearly think that white gentiles are/will be the elite, and they clearly desire for this state of affairs (a.k.a. they are White Supremacists). And, to a lesser extent, they are pigheaded dogmatists about meritocracy, hierarchy, and meekness. They need to take a hard look at the numbers that Ron Unz provides and updates continually about Elite University composition on his website, and see just how underrepresented white gentiles are (especially white gentiles from a Protestant background).

But Judaism always has this fear - that the goyim do not want to be subjugated. This was predicted in the story of Jacob and Esau. Remember that Jacob was renamed to “Israel” and the red-haired Esau and his other brothers are an allegory for goyim. The Bible says, of Esau, after Jacob steals his birthright and becomes the master of his brothers:

“By your sword you shall live, and you shall serve your brother; but when you grow restless you shall break his yoke from your neck”

The Jewish people dream of dominated the goyim, since the very beginning of the religion. But they fear that the goyim will hate being dominated, and will rise up against them to break the “yoke” of being the underclass in the world dominated by them.

The Holocaust was the example of the goyim rising up against Judaism. Every Jewish person had to question whether they, with their hyper-ambitious religion centered around taking over the goyim, were just putting themselves in a cycle of genocides, as the goyim, every thousand years, allow ourselves to be dominated, and then ultimately, after being too thoroughly emasculated, rise up to break the yoke.

Hypersexuality may be a post-traumatic condition. I think there is something very wrong with the fact that I see almost every single woman in my life as a sexual object. It could be the result of bullying and humiliation that I received as a child.

  1. Autism is an atavistic psychology.
  2. Autistics are more sensitive to social mistakes, because exclusion means death in a hunter-gatherer context.
  3. “Cluster B” as it’s called is thus a series of defense mechanisms that keep people from abandoning you. Ex’s: psychopaths instill Stockholm Syndrome, narcissists impress and manipulate, borderlines guilt you and get others to see you as evil.
  4. Social mistakes make it difficult to integrate into a community and raise a normal family. Hypersexuality is thus a mechanism of desperation: make babies with anyone; just make sure that you pass on your genes.

This also illuminates kleptomania. Why would a traumatized person begin to steal? Well, because your place in the group is no longer stable. Might as well rob them before they kick you out.

Binge eating could be another one. You’re not going to be there long so you overeat.

I really like this theory.

Unfortunately, there are some decent competing theories for the eating disorder idea, and I’d bet that the stealing idea would too (though I’m not familiar).

For sex, though, I think the argument might be quite good. Especially since sexual arousal tracks general bodily arousal and is correlated with adrenaline. Thus, even for healthy people, fight-or-flight triggers a desire to mate. It’s a human universal, not just a freakish example of abnormal psychology (like a looner fetish for example).

Being hypersexual might be merely being high-adrenaline.

I have really bad dandruff. Apparently emotional trauma can contribute to this.

https://twitter-thread.com/t/2017386129297707382

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Does this help?

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I don’t think my mother really loves me. I think she loves me in a one-dimensional sort of way where she doesn’t understand me but likes that I’m masculine.

It really hurts me when she praises me or gives me gifts because it’s obvious that she doesn’t know anything about me. She sees me as Mr. Eagle scout, and everything else is weird / dangerous / boring.

As Nicolosi repeats throughout his work, homosexuality comes from lifelong shame. My mother shamed me and shamed me and shamed me no matter how hard I tried to please her.

Sometimes I feel a deep need, an overwhelming need for an older woman to hold me.

As for my dad, I think it’s the same problem although nowhere near as dysfunctional. My dad gave me a lot of masculine confidence, and really helped me become a normal guy. But as I reflect it wasn’t very close. We just had nothing in common with each other.

I remember he forced me to spend $900 on a dirtbike so that we could go riding together. I didn’t want to do it at all, but he kept forcing me to do it every few weeks or so. I was like 18, 19, 20. It’s really weird in hindsight.

Joseph Nicolosi notes that the homosexual’s family tends to be an intrusive mother coupled with a distant father. I think it was like that, but it was expressed differently. I did develop my normal, masculine role, but there’s a mother wound.

What I don’t understand is what role the mother plays in the child’s development. Because the father’s role is clear – adopt a masculine role – but the mother’s is not.

In such situations, the feminine body becomes not a mysterious attraction, as it does for heterosexual men, but rather it becomes an object of dread. For the man who develops homosexually, the male body, in contrast, has no negative childhood associations of boundary violations and therefore, it represents a “safe haven” from the intrusive feminine.

“Mysterious,” that’s a word he used a lot. Sex and mystery appear to be linked…

A woman in a skimpy outfit is more exciting than a naked woman, because of the mystery. So getting molested at an early age or seeing your parent naked can possibly damage that mystery in a permanent way.

I know that’s a crude way of putting it, but after reading Zipf it’s clear that many behaviors that appear complex are just about their economy. So ruining the economical purpose of mystery creates a more multifaceted problem: sexual perversion, then asexuality.

We all want things. When we are denied our deepest wants, a trauma can occur.

Sex is the deepest expression of want. THAT’S why trauma is eroticized: the suppressed want comes out without nuance.

Wants are economical, so the degree of wanting – the amount of life force you’re willing to give – is controlled. A body operating at maximum capacity towards a want tries to hump the thing, because sex is what life is ultimately all about.

@Zenitsu

Can confirm that an intrusive mommy with a vaguely mentorish father made me like men more. I actually sort of hated women as a teenager. I wanted friendships with women and women role models but I was never authentically impressed by them. However as an adult I got better at making friends of the same sex. I think my preferences toward women lean towards dissociative, detached and sometimes psychopathic women. Psychopathic women dominating my role model slots and dissociative women dominating my friendships. I hate neuroticism. More women should be taught stoicism. Though weirdly enough, while I like stoic men, I seem to like emotional men more. Oh but I always tried to keep those feelings to myself. Since anything that is anti-woman also hurts myself I try not to say anything too gendered. Russian women seem fairly cool headed so it’s probably my own cultural grievances.

Hmm I wonder if some asexuals were traumatized out of wanting so even sexual desires and fantasies become diminished.